Las gracias

En su momento él me dio las gracias por todo. Fue recíproco. Ahora yo siento que le debo una disculpa por todas las heridas y sus respectivas secuelas. Primera expectativa: quisiera que también fuera recíproco.

Imagino un escenario en el que ambos compartimos un cigarro y una caguama; imagino que le digo "no pretendo que volvamos a empezar porque me dejaste claro que eso es imposible hace tiempo. Eres un laberinto en el que me da miedo perderme (otra vez). Sólo quiero sentir que hay paz genuina desde ambos territorios".

Sé que no pasará.

S. nos describió diciendo: "tuvieron una relación afectiva demasiado intensa". Ha sido la mejor forma de nombrarlo.

Algún día te dejaré ir, pero por mientras esta canción que es demasiado ad hoc para ser verdad:

I wish that we could talk about it
But there, that's the problem
With someone new I could have started
Too late for beginnings
The little things that made me nervous
Are gone in a moment
I miss the way we used to argue
Locked in your basement

[Verse 2]
I wake up and the phone is ringing
Surprised, as it's early
And that should be a perfect warning
That something's a problem
To tell the truth, I saw it coming
The way you were breathing
But nothing can prepare you for it
The voice on the other end

[Verse 3]
The worst is all the lovely weather
I'm stunned it's not raining
The coffee isn't even bitter
Because what's the difference?
There's all the work that needs to be done
It's late for revision
There's all the time and all the planning
And songs to be finished
[Bridge]

And it keeps coming and it keeps coming
And it keeps coming 'til the day it stops

[Verse 4]
I wish that we could talk about it
But there, that's the problem
With someone new I could have started
Too late for beginnings
You're smaller than my wife imagined
Surprised you were human
There shouldn't be this radio silence
But what are the options?

[Outro]
When someone great is gone, when someone great is gone
We're safe
For the moment
Saved
For the moment